The Last Night on Deck
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Last night of the cruise, the water went dark and glassy and the wind finally let the heat unclench. My wife and I were doing lazy laps on our mobility scooters—two quiet circles under a sky that looked endless enough to forgive anything. A small group of teenagers drifted over, the way kids do when curiosity wins. They were polite. They asked before they touched. We let them take the scooters for a spin. Laughter has a sound you can feel in your ribs, even over the ocean.
When the joyrides settled, one kid parked beside me and didn’t roll away. Eighteen, high school diploma barely dry. He had that look you get when your mind is louder than the music. He said he was dreading the last night. Not the suitcase. Not the check-out line. Going home.
We talked. At first it was small stuff—the food, the ports, the weird towel animals. Then he said where “home” was, and the words shifted weight. He lived in a place that teaches you to survive first and dream later, if at all. He was smart—quick on the uptake, a listener, the kind of kid who makes eye contact when you answer. But he couldn’t see a door. That bothered me. It still does.
I asked nosy questions. He gave honest answers. He had a car. He had a work ethic. He had the kind of humility that usually means someone’s been underestimated for too long. What he didn’t have was a route. People tell kids “stay out of trouble” and “work hard,” and almost nobody points to where. Hard work without direction is a treadmill. Hard work with direction is a road.
So we drew a road with words, right there against the rail.
“Pick a place that wants you,” I said. “If it’s college, start with community college. That’s a front door, not a consolation prize. If it’s a trade, choose one with a ladder built in—real rungs, not promises. Make three calls on Day One: admissions or hiring, financial aid or HR, registrar or scheduling. Get two documents in your bag: ID and something that proves who you are. Find one place to sleep that first week that doesn’t add chaos. Write it down. Paper beats memory.”
He nodded, and I watched the nod change from polite to possible. We talked about fear. Not the big-scary fear—just the constant drip of “What if this doesn’t work?” I told him the truth: “You will fail a few times. Everyone does. But failure is a speed bump when you’ve got a map. It’s a wall when you don’t.”
We talked about money in plain numbers. The weekly nut: rent, food, phone, transportation, books. The difference between a job and a job-with-a-ladder. The interview question most people never ask: “What’s the next title here, and what does a person actually do to get it?” If they can’t answer, you just got your answer.
I asked him to build a tiny circle—three people. One a year ahead (to show the potholes), one at his level (to keep him honest), one a step behind (so he could teach—teaching locks in learning). “Every Friday, they ask you one question: ‘What did you move forward this week?’ You answer with receipts: a screenshot, a form, a schedule, a shift.”
We didn’t romanticize anything. We named the hard parts out loud: paperwork that feels like a maze, offices that don’t call back, friends who call you a sellout when you start to change. “Leaving isn’t betrayal,” I told him. “It’s alignment. You’re not running away from people; you’re running toward the person you promised yourself you’d become. If you leave right, you can come back right—later—when you’ve got enough strength to help for real.”
Somewhere in there, the sky got darker and the ship lights brighter and the wind cooler. He wasn’t smiling, exactly. It was more like a face remembering how to hold hope without feeling silly. He asked about the first week. We went hour by hour. We even talked about driving in daylight the first time—less drama, fewer surprises. We made it boring on purpose. Boring is underrated. Boring gets you to Thursday with energy left.
I don’t know what he did when he stepped off that ship. That’s the truth. Last nights are full of unfinished sentences. Maybe he drove home and the old gravity took over. Maybe he pointed the car toward a campus he’d only seen on a website and showed up at the admissions office with a folder of papers and a question. Maybe he took a job that trained him into something with a future and met a supervisor who said his name like it mattered. Maybe he failed twice and tried a third time. Maybe—my favorite maybe—he texted two friends and said, “Ask me Friday what I moved forward,” and they did.
I hope he left right. I hope the plan rode shotgun and only spoke when asked. I hope the first week had two little wins in it, because two is enough to change a person’s posture.
After we said goodnight, I couldn’t sleep. The conversation stayed on me like salt. I kept seeing his face in that in-between light—half boy, half man, the moment before a wheel turns. That’s when I wrote a song. It wasn’t the point of the night, just the echo. A way to hold the feeling and send it somewhere useful. The song became a few songs. But the music is just the wrapper. The center is the kid and the hundreds like him—the ones who have the engine, the tank half full, and no map that anyone ever handed over without a lecture attached.
I tell this story because I want it on the record that hope isn’t a mood; it’s a plan that fits on one page. It’s three calls and two documents and one route in the morning. It’s writing down phone numbers and addresses and instructions because paper doesn’t argue. It’s giving yourself an environment that wants you and a week designed to produce small, undeniable wins. It’s saying, out loud, “I’m leaving” and letting someone ask you on Friday what moved forward.
Mostly, I tell it because I want to believe he did it—and because believing that makes me more useful to the next kid who wanders over and doesn’t roll away. I want to be the grown-up who can hand over a folded map without making it about me. The ocean is big enough to carry our maybes, but I want more endings where the maybe turns into a mailing address, a class schedule, a work badge, a text that says “Week 3. Still going.”
If you’re reading this and the walls around you feel like they were built long before you got there, borrow our deck plan for a week. Make the calls. Pack the bag. Drive in daylight. Find the one person who says your name like they expect you to show up again next Tuesday. Start boring. Start now.
I don’t know where that kid is tonight. I choose to believe he’s further down the road than he thought possible on that last night. I choose to believe the door we cracked open stayed open long enough for him to walk through. That’s the thing about possibility: once you see the outline of it, you can’t unsee it. And once you take the first steps, hope stops being this fragile, pretty word and starts behaving like what it really is—a set of habits pointed in the same direction.
If we ever cross paths again, I hope he tells me where the road led. But even if I never know, I’m glad we stood under that big sky and drew a map together. It was simple. It was specific. It was his.
And I’m rooting for him, still.
Lyrics:
Get the fuck out.
(Verse 1) Listen up, let me make this clear, When trouble comes knocking, no room for fear, Stand tall, be bold, no time to doubt, Gotta find your strength, and get the fuck out.
(Pre-Chorus) In the face of danger, you won't cower, Summon your power, hour by hour, Don't let negativity twist your route, Take a stand, my friend, and get the fuck out.
(Chorus) Get the fuck out, break those chains, Don't let misery seep into your veins, Rise above, don't fall into the drought, Liberate your soul, and get the fuck out.
(Verse 2) Life's too short to dwell in despair, Escape that trap, show 'em you care, You're not a puppet, don't dance about, Cut those strings, and get the fuck out.
(Pre-Chorus) In the face of danger, you won't cower, Summon your power, hour by hour, Don't let negativity twist your route, Take a stand, my friend, and get the fuck out.
(Chorus) Get the fuck out, break those chains, Don't let misery seep into your veins, Rise above, don't fall into the drought, Liberate your soul, and get the fuck out.
(Bridge) There's a world out there, beyond the haze, A brighter path, a better phase, Leave the shadows, let go of doubt, Embrace the light, and get the fuck out.
(Verse 3) No more excuses, no more lies, You've got the power deep inside, Shake off the dust, remove the clout, It's time to move on, and get the fuck out.
(Pre-Chorus) In the face of danger, you won't cower, Summon your power, hour by hour, Don't let negativity twist your route, Take a stand, my friend, and get the fuck out.
(Chorus) Get the fuck out, break those chains, Don't let misery seep into your veins, Rise above, don't fall into the drought, Liberate your soul, and get the fuck out.
(Outro) Remember these words when you're in a bind, Escape the darkness, leave it behind, With strength and courage, there's no doubt, You'll find your way, just get the fuck out. You sent (Verse 1) I broke free from the chains, no longer bound, Left the negativity and pain on the ground. I'm stepping out, my head held high, Leaving the past behind, waving it all goodbye.
(Pre-Chorus) No more drama, no more strife, I'm focused on creating a better life. Gotta rise above, leave it in the past, No room for the darkness, only light will last.
(Chorus) I got the fuck out, and I won't look back, No ghetto drama, no more off-track. I'm walking tall, leaving it without a doubt, I'll rise above it all, no getto with me, no doubt.
(Verse 2) I shed the weight of the world, a new start, Gotta cleanse my soul, mend my heart. No more toxic vibes, no negative crew, Surrounding myself with those who are true.
(Pre-Chorus) No more drama, no more strife, I'm focused on creating a better life. Gotta rise above, leave it in the past, No room for the darkness, only light will last.
(Chorus) I got the fuck out, and I won't look back, No ghetto drama, no more off-track. I'm walking tall, leaving it without a doubt, I'll rise above it all, no getto with me, no doubt.
(Bridge) I'm breaking these chains, finding my way, No longer confined, I'm seizing the day. I'll build a better future, a life so bright, No ghetto shadows, only shining light.
(Verse 3) It's a brand new chapter, a fresh page, No more dwelling on past rage. I'll rewrite my story, with hope and grace, No ghetto burdens, I'll find my place.
(Pre-Chorus) No more drama, no more strife, I'm focused on creating a better life. Gotta rise above, leave it in the past, No room for the darkness, only light will last.
(Chorus) I got the fuck out, and I won't look back, No ghetto drama, no more off-track. I'm walking tall, leaving it without a doubt, I'll rise above it all, no getto with me, no doubt.
(Outro) This journey ahead, a chance to renew, No ghetto baggage, I'll stay true. I'll forge my path, leaving shadows behind, Embracing the light, with a heart unconfined.
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